Wednesday, January 31, 2007 @10:21 PM

LIFE'S BEEN BUSY.

STUDIES IS REALLI NOT EVERYTHING OF UR LIFE.We study for interest?for ourselves?for watever reasons?but definitely not to make us miserable rite?
is life abt having fun?
when u study n mug u may feel terrible but if u do get results,the sense of achievement makes u happy.
when u dota,u feed n feel sad.but after some time,when u start to own,do u feel extremely good?
when u bball,u get steamboat n feel noob.but when u start to burn ppl,outrun ppl,do u feel proud of urself?
when u go out with frens to catch a movie etc,are u affected if that movie is lousy?or do u still enjoy v much cos of the company?
shldnt we be doing things or enjoying everything if not most of the things we do?
but why do i know find it a chore to do anything?

day by day,the never ending schoolwork,the exponentially increasing question marks in head,the brighter n brighter stars round my pea sized brain,the even steeper exponential increase of stress make mi more n more demoralised.confidence level getting lower n lower.no matter how many sleepless nights i undergo,the work nvr ends.n not to mention,i am super tired lar...a fren of mine cited in her blog,she needed like 30 hrs per day so as to get some personal time after a day's work.i guess if u give mi 48 now,i still cant do much.
xiong is rite.is not dun wan mug,is dunno where to start to mug.just by reading bits n bits everyday doesnt seem enuff at all.n read once,read twice,read thrice,u may still not understand or not being able to do the applications.
the non stop incoming readings,the bullet train speed in lectures,make mi extremely frustrated.
not to mention c++ LABS.just troubleshooting n debugging,i can sit in front of com until my chair is on fire.

i just need more freedom.everyday,reach hm almost 8pm.dinner,rest abit only.is abt 10pm le.
next day lessons at 9 or 10am.so tell mi,wat can i realli do?i dun even have time to do anything as sheduled.
the competition in sch doesnt even give mi a chance to take a deep breathe.

slept only 3 hrs,i was so tired this morn that i could hardly run to chase my bus,i could hardly open my eyes to read readings or watever,n i even need to force myself up to alight.

is it cos sch starts,that bball seems so far away?or do i realli got to mug n purely mug n do nothing but mug for the next 4 mths?i cant do it.it's madness for mi.

i miss all my frens,but i dun even have time to meet up with anyone.even msging same fren 100 times for lunch,this same fren will give mi a 200 replies of NO that includes dinner.LOL.everyone is super busy,that includes myself.

then again,if i cant stand this,how am i gonna face even more challenging obstacles?life's indeed a dilemma.

it's just the 4th wk of sch...n in 2 wks time,2 assignments are due...follow by mid terms.y do i keep having this feeling that exams are like tml?

this routine of life has kinda make mi quite sick n feeling low.i need a break.

o-m-o-i